Letting My Brain Loose

I really miss the days when I had so much time on my hands.

Anxiety rarely affects me physically anymore, but in general, I'm a fairly anxious person. This anxiety derives from my ongoing fetish of perfection. Due to my personality, I tend to notice things that people rarely pay attention to. I even notice this in the work environment. At my current job, the boxes strolling along the conveyor belt will occasionally jam up and get stuck. Since I am naturally soft-spoken, I either a) fix the problem myself if I'm able to and/or nearby, b) wait anxiously and hope for someone else to fix it, or c) tell someone by me to yell across the warehouse, "FIX THOSE BOXES!!!" Anyway, the point is that I'm usually the first one to notice things.

The world has lost its fervor for intelligence and wisdom. Most people are so obsessed with foolishness and fun. It doesn't help that they're proud about it too. They see elegance and sophistication as boring and uncool. I find that so peculiar and somewhat disturbing. The earth has become a very trashy place over the years. Whatever happened to the simple ways of living? It is written in the Bible that God is not the author of confusion. Since atheism is fairly prominent these days, confusion has been permeating the masses. They just don't know what hit them. What breaks my heart is that so many people lost respect not only for others, but for themselves! Decorum is sadly outdated these present days. *sigh*

The way we act outwardly is often the way we feel inwardly. Of course, we can bottle everything up, but eventually everything will come out one way or another. I notice that most people who become cleansed by the blood of Jesus Christ become more sophisticated in nature and in character. Such a great love can cause us to do the unthinkable.

To some people, God is merely a belief; to others, myself included, God is fact and reality. These are those who have received full truth. God makes himself known to them who desperately want to know Him. What drew me to Jesus was His perfection. I love reading in the Gospels how no man or woman could ever bring Him down. He always gave a simple, yet bold and flawless response that shut up the haters by causing them to realize their own fallacies. He always knows how to handle people correctly too. He knew to save some by using compassion and making a positive difference in their lives; yet He knew to save others with fear, pulling them out of the fire. (See Jude 22-23) I love the fact that He's everything we need Him to be. For me, He's always been my shoulder to cry on, my father, my mother, my brother, my sister, my friend, my master, my slave (when my heart is pure), my husband, my wife, my healer, my mentor, my guide, etc. Those who reject Jesus never knew Him. They only either a) believe what people have falsely said about Him, or b) have only read the Old Testament. Most Christians have a habit of giving their God a bad name. We are a product of the one we love the most. A hateful and judgmental "Christian" gives the false illusion of God being hateful and wrongfully judgmental. A loving and liberal "Christian" gives the false illusion of God being being fine with everything. True children of God reflect the unadulterated true personality of God. No one can change who God is - only change the ways people see Him. He will never change regardless of what people say.

God's judgment is always rightful, just, purposeful, and done out of love. Where would we be without correction? We aren't always right, we know. (I have to read that last phrase over a few times, lol). Though I am obsessed with perfection, I am never perfect. Granted, there are some things I cannot change, but there is occasionally something I do that I think and feel is right, but is indeed wrong. God corrects me. For many, it hurts to be corrected, but it is so healthy for the soul. Woe to those who take offense at being corrected.

Jesus is the sole Creator of love. He is the REAL god of romance. We are the object of His desire. He is the prime stalker of us all, and I'm not the least weirded out by that. Who can deny the perfect gentlemen who is so wholeheartedly interested in us? Not I. In life, I try my best to let Jesus know that He is always welcome with me wherever I go. I always want the environments I'm in to be okay for Him. I don't want to go anywhere He doesn't want to go.

It bothers me how people tend to focus on what they cannot do as Christians. That mentality causes them to never be satisfied with anything. It's the oldest trick in the Book. The serpent caused Eve to see the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good evil as something that God was holding back from her.

When you go into a nice restaurant and browse through your menu, do you not let your cravings jump from entree to entree? One thing sounds good. Another thing sounds good, causing you to gradually forget the initial entree you considered. Whatever we put in front of our eyes, as long as it appeals to us, we begin to crave more and more of it. We can only focus on one thing at a time. With this in mind, we must realize that we can manipulate the way we live our lives.

The only way Christians can gain holiness is by receiving a continual touch from the Almighty. The more we include God in our lives, the more we crave Him. Those who have been truly touched by Him know right along with me that He is downright ADDICTIVE!!! If I spend long amounts of time doing other things, not incorporating Him, I'd forget about Him. It happens. Our minds, so often, become consumed with what's going on around us.

There's so much we can do to live a good life.

Ahh, now my brain feels relaxed. :-)