It's been a while since I just spoke of life. I've always had permission to blog of the positive. However, the main reason I stopped blogging is because I don't have the time to nor the desire. But I feel like updating you all. This will be short.
I've finally found the beauty of letting go of the control and letting Jesus, as Carrie Underwood put it, "take the wheel." He really is a much better driver than I am. When I look in the mirror, I don't see myself as the same man I saw a week ago and before that; I see a new man.
In the past, there were days I looked in the mirror and just felt ugly. But now, I look in the mirror and see a very attractive young man. The splotches of acne don't even phase me. Suddenly, I just look more beautiful. This has always been important to me, not for vanity's sake, but rather for confidence's sake. The Lord has given me inner beauty since I casted away the ugliness I held on to for so long. All of it was centered around fears, insecurities, and feelings of inadequacy. So yeah, basically fear.
Idk how, but I somehow managed to drop my walls that I held up to keep everyone out. Once I did, suddenly people came flocking to me . . . . . and for some reason, I didn't mind it. I still don't. Jesus has truly blessed me. I'm clicking with people whom I thought would always be enemies or something like it. People whom I've NEVER talked have suddenly become some of my best friends. Even people I never really liked, suddenly I like, seeing whole new sides of them I've never seen. Judging people is such a cruel thing for us because we'll rarely know all the details of their lives. Judgment is only applicable in that manner. Btw, judgment is "the act of forming an opinion." Plus, you gotta understand some things - the way people work. You really gotta THINK about everything. You gotta discover the motives of the heart.
But yeah, I'm gonna go. Busy days make tired people.
Nighty night. :-P
