Pièce de Résistance de Dieu

(Masterpiece of God)

It used to bother me that I was different, but now my perspective has changed. I no longer see my peculiarities as defects, but rather as blessings and as definitions of my character. If I was a sculpture, I would consider myself beautifully bizarre or sensationally surreal. Those of you who know me know that I've had very low esteem and very little confidence for all of my life. For me to say these things and the things I'm about to say is very difficult.

This blog is an effort to encourage myself, perhaps others.

Life has always consisted of me contradicting everyone. I never did it on purpose; it was just who I was. Clicking with people was always a failed attempt. The status quo simply never interested me.

As of now, I have found myself to be a mixture of many stereotypical crowds. You may have read my blog in which I elaborated on the quote, "Birds of a feather flock together." My plumage is of every color. I'd even go as far as to say that I'm a combination of both genders, personality-wise of course.

Many say that one's soul is without gender. If this is true, God has no gender either. Lately, I've been doing some intense studying regarding androgyny. There are theories out there that Adam, the first man, was actually androgynous (both male and female). When God took Eve out of his side, He took the female aspects out of him and formed them into a person. Then there was both male and female. Also consider that when two marry, they "become one flesh." This is a very interesting study. Apparently, Jews believe that God has no gender. They've always referred to G-d as a "He," because of the principles of the Hebrew language. Masculine terminology was given to things that were strong, unbreakable, and resilient. Feminine terminology was seen as weak, breakable, and frail. Also consider that the man was created as the head of the family. Referring to the Lord as a male gender may simply be an anthropomorphism, which is the application of human characteristics to a non-human object in attempts to better explain it in a more understandable way. The Bible says that God created man in His own image. If Adam was androgynous, then so was God. Even later on in Genesis, it says this: "So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them." Men and women are in God's image. This is a very interesting topic. Of course, it is only a theory, as far as I'm concerned. I'd like to talk to a devout Jew regarding this.

Anyway, I remember learning in a few classes the differences between the way male and female brains think. In addition, I read much of John Gray's "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus." At these points of my education, I found myself to equate more with the female way of thinking. It has always been that way with me. It is generally understood that one becomes like the ones he surrounds himself with. I grew up hanging out with girls, and my mom was the main individual to raise me. Hanging out with guys didn't really happen until I went to college. I'm at a point now in my life where I can pretty much hang out with anyone and be okay with it. My mind is much more of a neutral gender now.

It is very easy for me to catch people off guard and completely boggle them. I do it just by being me, lol. These past several months, I've learned to embrace myself as a creation of God. He made me who I am for a reason. If He wishes to make changes, I will let Him. People can say all sorts of things, judging me and my persona, but may God have the final say. As far as my own say, my persona is regarded as highly unusual, old-fashioned, taboo even, at least in America. In foreign countries, I could be regarded as normal. It's all a matter of one's perspective and cultural upbringing.

I encourage you, even DARE you to be bold and to do the things you've always wanted to do (as long as they're not sinful) and to be the person you've always wanted to be. Don't let the opinions of others, whether positive or negative, affect who you are. The only individual's whose opinion you should care about is God's, for He created you and your identity.

The world is full of chaos, confusion, and despair. Peer pressure is one of its deadliest poisons that many are forced to ingest. Don't let yourself fall for it.

". . . whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. (Philippians 4:8)