A Dream I Had

I don't know why the Lord gave me this dream last night, but this morning, He is urging me to share it with you all. Perhaps this is for somebody who feels like this victim in my dream that I'm about to mention. I feel it really adequately illustrates how the love of God works.

First of all, let me give you a background on this girl. She is actually someone I know in person, an acquaintance of mine. From the couple of years I have known her, I have watched her from a distance in my bouts of people watching. What I have noticed is that she has suffered a lot of rejection. She is nowhere near the ideal girl that our society wishes to have amongst us. Her appearance isn't what the world sees as appealing. She is overweight, unattractive in appearance, quite masculine, having a much deeper voice, a little bit slow, malodorous, etc. I think you get the picture. So anyway . . . I have always noticed and even overheard that not a lot of people like her. I happen to be one of the few people that like her because it's never been in me as a person to judge by the outward appearance.

Her personality is fairly decent, though whenever I am near her, I feel an intense burden upon me. I'm used to my independence, not being tied down by anyone else's agendas, but whenever I was around her, I felt so bogged down. I'm generally a very quick person when it comes to expressing colorful personality, but this girl is by nature monotonous, slow of speech, and has somewhat of a gray personality. Despite the way I feel towards her, I've always noticed that she had quite a connection with God. So now . . . without further ado, here is my dream:

I was in a large field playing with some good friends of mine in somewhat of a childlike manner. It was like a corn field. We were chasing each other around having a lot of fun, up until this girl - the one I just described - came into the picture and tried to join us. I was a bit uneasy about it, but allowed her to play with us. The Jesus in me compelled me to allow her in. My other friends, on the other hand, wouldn't have it. They didn't flat out tell her to go away, but that was the overtone of their speech. They had looks of disgust on their faces and their speech was laced with hatred.

Since I was the one who allowed her in and accepted her, she was drawn to me - a bit too much, actually. People who have suffered great deals of rejection will find themselves cleaving onto others who display any sign of the slightest bit of acceptance towards them. Therefore, people who have suffered the greatest deal of rejection are also the ones who have the greatest capacity to be the closest to God. So anyway, I just let this girl chase me for a little bit until I became tired and went into the house (it was a random farm house, I guess). She followed me in. I sat down in a corner by what seemed like a pantry to get a snack or something, but something prevented me from doing so. When I had sat down, this girl did so as well, uncomfortably close to me. I brushed it off at first, until she started touching me. Then things got weird.

She hugged me from behind, which was very awkward, but I let her do it. Then she proceed to "pet" me in a loving manner upon my back and shoulders, which really started to creep me out and irritate me. Then all of a sudden, she had the nerve to squeeze my rear end. Out of shock, I addressed her by name and exclaimed, "HEY! Please don't do that!" She found it amusing and laughed. So she did it again in a more extreme manner. I yelled her name saying, "STOP IT!!!" Still she found it amusing. She then got out of hand and then proceeded to harass me sexually in various manners. This was too much.

Instinctively, I drew back my hand to slap her. When I slapped her face, I made a final exclamation, addressing her by name, saying, "YOU NEED TO STOP THIS!!! THIS IS NOT ALRIGHT!!! IF YOU DON'T STOP, I'LL CALL 911, AND DON'T YOU DARE THINK I WON'T!!!"

She got the message.

The girl got up, with tears in her eyes, and walked away. I felt bad for hitting her, but I was too angry to care at the moment. But as I reached for my snack after I was so rudely interrupted, the Spirit of God moved upon me. It prompted me to go to her and apologize. I argued with Him in the spirit for a minute, but He won. The Spirit of God in me convicted me and began to love through me. It was so powerful. God was trying to love this girl through me since He knew that I at least liked her as a person a little bit. I cannot adequately describe this feeling. Some of you know what I'm talking about; others will not.

I got up from where I was sitting and searched for this girl. My wrath towards her was gone and I was willing to forgive her. That's the way God works, I've found. He's very quick to forgive. It is written that those who are led by the Spirit of God shall be called the sons of God. They are just like their Father. So once I allowed the Spirit of God to move through me, I was very quick to forgive. Others may identify with this. Anyway, I found this girl sitting on a couch with her head in her hands sobbing. No matter who you are, if you were to have seen her in the condition that she was in at this point, you would know that she had felt very ashamed. She felt very sorry for what she had done. She felt so rejected and unloved. God had convicted her of her sin, which was why she was crying. It was both an act of repentance and of expressing her inward pain towards God. It's something we all need to do.

The Spirit of God in me signaled to me that she was truly sorry and ashamed for what she had done. I sensed that she did not mean to do the things she did to me, but it was instinctively. She lost control of herself and now feels bad about it. So, God urged me to go over to her and embrace her. After I knew she was sorry, I then sensed the intense inner pain she was feeling and my heart broke.

The Bible says that Jesus is touched with the feelings of our infirmities. When he saw the multitudes, He was moved with compassion. In this case, I was moved with compassion. So I went over to this girl and embraced her. As soon as I did, I started sobbing uncontrollably with her. The presence of the Lord was heavily in that place, evidenced by the intense goosebumps on our skin and the hair on our flesh standing up. Once I was able to get a hold of myself as the girl continued to cry, God started to speak through me and prophesy to this girl.

(Btw, "prophecy" isn't necessarily telling about future events, but "prophecy" also references to telling about current or past events in a person's life. It's using a combination the spiritual gift of knowledge and discerning of spirits as mentioned in 1 Corinthians 12. Let me tell you, this is a WHOLE lot better than psychic, and much more accurate if it is truly from God.)

I don't recall the exact words God said to this girl through me, but it was along these lines: "[girl's name], I know that you are hurting, and you have learned your lesson. Because of your humility before me, I will bless you. I will heal your brokenness and give you what you need. I have never ceased to love you." I know this girl could decipher the difference between what I'm saying and what God is saying.

The prophecy reminded me of 2 Chronicles 7:24 - "If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land."

If only we all could possess the Spirit of God and allow Him to love others through us. We can't always love people unconditionally on our own strength. As a matter of fact, I don't think it's even possible for human alone. We need the Holy Ghost in us to do it. If you've never felt this unconditional love through you, then either you do not have the Holy Ghost or you are simply not yielding to it. If you are wondering what your condition is in this matter, go to someone very unappealing and minister to them - be a friend to them. Befriend someone who has no friends, who is not at all fortunate, etc. If it is not in you to love the least lovable, then you simply are not a child of God. You need to make it right.

If you have not felt the love of God for a long time, or even at all, watch this video that I just found. There are literally MILLIONS of people out there like this. This is just one young man who came in touch with God. It's powerful. I can give you more videos like this if you are interested. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_-3dcsl6BU